Saturday, October 18, 2003
Finally my new blog template is up... liked this one better, cos it's closer to my theme -- "Clouds".
So today, 18 oct 2003, i'll have exactly 1 month before my 1st paper for my exams start... i still feel that i'm not even halfway through for all my modules... argh!! but no need for alarms yet, i'm still taking it nice and slow... oops... But then, isn't there a saying, "slow and steady wins the race"? i hope i'm steady enough, cos i'm extremely slow... ;)
These few days haven't been feeling like going to school... skipped lecture today again, just to give tuition... it's real tiring to go ALL the way to Clementi just for 1 & 1/2 hrs of lecture, isn't it? i think my travelling time is 2x as long... well, at least i get to earn my keeps by giving tuitions... * i see my bank acct growing * but soon it'll be drained again, cos driving takes up lotsa $$ also, and i don't foresee myself passing on my 1st attempt... haiz... and there's this Australia trip... Sighz...
just now, my junior msg me at around noon, told me that she flunked her maths module, got the lowest grade among all... and she was saying how she will flunk the test later in the afternoon, and on sat... she's always been a gal with a rather low level of self-confidence, and she's super sensitive to how ppl view her, always pessimistic about life... and i always try to encourage her to think on the positive side, but she fails to do so again and again... i think the best i could do is help her with her maths module, but i haven't been doing much either, cos she seldom sees me around... well, i'm either at Arts or i'm either near home, giving tuitions... i am really bad at giving advices, and don't really sound convincing enough, cos my ideals often get swayed or influenced halfway... and i feel really lost for her... furthermore, she told me her family problems before, so i feel for her even more... but alas, all along, i'm the person who's been taken care of, i don't really take care of ppl that much, come to think of it... so who do i think i am? to try to help her? sigh~ i'll still try my best...
rainy days really gets me down... i received her msg when i was raining... tho i went swimming this morning in the hot sunshine, it didn't last till noon... sighz, dampened my mood for the whole day...
| posted by clouds at 12:40 AM
