Friday, October 10, 2003
Wow, how small can the world be?
that we're actually connected to this whole network... and we can see it thru the friendster... cos everyone seems to know everyone else it seems... hmm... well issit a good thing or a bad thing?
sometimes when u see that ur list keeps growing but in fact, do u really know everyone so well? i really hate to say that even if my list keeps growing, it's just cos i got to know that person at some pt in life and then both of us just moved on... it's no tlike we'll come back together or wat? so wat if u're connected now? it's still gonna be the same as we've not added each other, don't u think ? well, it's always rather depressing to find out so rite? haiz~
well, must congratulate me ok? for being able to see thru things... for being able to maintain my intergrity, for being able to let go off all the ramblings abt not being able to go out with this guy or that... life certainly is boring, but hey, concentrate on my studies, be some nerdy gal, who can earn big bucks in future, live on my own, and study some more... and earn $$ till i die... sad rite? but i guess i'm gonna live this way for the rest of my life... anyone wanna join me? leave me a note... ha ha...
so now, my current goals: study like siao, get 2nd upper, get a nice cushy job, climb my way up the corporate ladder and get my apartment in district 9 or 10, own a cutey maltese, drive a nice auto car, travel every yr...... go club every wkend, facials, spa, manicure, gym, shop till i drop... hee~ ever so ambitious... and i'm gonna dread growing old... maybe i won't grow so old... i can't imagine being old, maybe i'll die of cancer before i'm 40... maybe i won't be able to live past this yr... or maybe, even tonite? well, dun worry, i sound sucidal, but i'm fine actually... i'm too afraid of death to die... and i haven't achievd my first goal yet...which is to get my 2nd upper... i'll work hard... there's no one to depend on, other than myself...
i'm just a material girl, living in this material world, u can't blame me, but i can't help blaming myself... why am i so pragmatic?
| posted by clouds at 12:17 AM
