Saturday, March 13, 2004
just copied the lyrics from huey's blog... hee~ can really identify with it... maybe i'm "only lonely" -- "没有人陪 太多人追又太会拒绝" loneliness? i'm slowly growing used to it... not such a big deal anymore... at least nowadays... at least, i'd rather ppl i dun like leave me alone... ha ha...
"这个世界 美丽世界 有点寂寞
才有点缀 花花世界 爱的世界 你的寂寞 总有边界
如果真的很Sad 写个简讯请你按个Send
我保证立刻出现 把你臭骂一顿 让你甘愿"
oh u know wat happened yest? i felt quite amused actually... u know when u watch "guess guess guess" by Jacky Wu? they have this section about the prettiest schgals etc... and i hear their experiences with ppl wanting to get to know them etc.. i find some of them quite ridiculous... but i nv thought i'd happen to me... esp cos i'm not pretty...
yup, i was walking to the bus stop and was waiting to cross the road across a carpark some blocks away from my blk, and this man in the car abt to turn out of the carpark rolled down the window (i was waiting for his car to pass b4 i cross the rd). then he was asking me, " did i see u somewhere? where do u live?" u know, that kinda question... i told him, no, i haven't seen u before... yup, i live a few blocks behind... hmmm?? and then he kept saying u looked familiar... and i say i dun rem seeing u... and then he concluded, must've seen me around the neighbourhood... DUH! obviously...
and then he asked me where i was working (working?!! i look sooo old? i mean, i was wearing a rather short, denim skirt leh, not some office skirt, and my bag is quite casual?)? and so i told him i'm actually studying at NUS etc... and then he offered me his namecard and took out his hand, told me he's Kelvin, wat's my name etc etc... yah, his motive is to get to know me loh... wat familiar? chey... and so he asked me whether he can get my contact no... i hesitated for awhile, but then i was already running late so i wrote down my no (forgot to change the last digit or sth like dat -- meilin taught me), and he asked me whether he can contact me? i was like so hesitant, i guessed he got an answer, and he wanted my email too... and so i gave him my email, but i think no harm lah... trying to get him to move off so i can carry on to the busstop... and so finally got him to move off... but i was fuming by the time i reach the busstop cos i just missed the bus and ended up 15 min late for my tutorial...
and i found it amusing and rather sad that this guy, obviously 1) not-so-gd looking 2) quite old (think 30 + bah) 3) balding, with residing hairline is interested to get to know me... sighz... oh, at least if one day i get to "guess guess guess" and be one of the ugly yet popular gals or maybe one of the old-looking gals or one of the appealing to old man gals, i'll have some experience to share? ha ha...
i dun wan all these to be happening to me!! i just want to live life normally, peacefully, happily and hopefully with the one i love! everything that is happening to me this yr is so queer, so out-of-the ordinary, so distant from wat i've always been doing and wat i always wanted... can someone pls pull me back to reality?? oh at least for now, i'm satisfied with being lonely...
| posted by clouds at 11:15 AM
