Thursday, February 19, 2004
Tonite (oops, shd be last nite) was the 1st nite after such a long time since i felt lonely... really lonely...
Seems like i often take ppl for granted... every tue and wed are my late nite lecture days, and i often just go home late without worrying abt no companion, even if sometimes me and ade dun talk much on the bus... today ade's not feeling well, and the lecturer released us later than usual as well, and so, i foresee reaching home later, and alone for a longer period of time on the bus...
yup, was feeling quite down for a while, and was secretly hoping that Mr ML AKA Mr Peanut Riceballs (Aud says it's so obiang to give ppl tang yuan) would stay in sch late, so that he can drive me home... maybe i shall not be so mean as to reject his dinner dates so that i can get more free rides? *cheapskate!* i won't do that, cos i don't want to give him the wrong idea anyway... phew, boy was i glad i haven't been out with him...
anyway, did bump into Ron and TY on the 74 so it's not too much as to being alone, but yes it's still lonely... but i guess by the time i reach the busstop outside my house, the feeling has dissipated... i don't think i'm pathetic, i don't think i have the right to feel lonely and alone... maybe i yearn for campanionship, but being alone won't hurt...
remember last yr i did blog abt walking home alone at nite from my tuition kid's hse back? tonite, i got back that kind of feeling...
at night, without a single car on the roads,
when there's no one else on the pedestrian way,
hear the leaves rustling in the wind,
hear my breathe together with my footsteps,
humming along to my favourite song,
thinking abt the events of the day,
thinking about a certain you out there,
wondering when will you walk me home?
wondering when will u share my favourite path?
i don't wanna share a cab with you,
i don't wanna you to drive me home,
i just wanna you to walk me home,
and take my favourite path with me...
and maybe i'll sing you my favourite song
or maybe i'll sing you your favourite song...
yup, i guess my idea of romance has not been met... Silly Pisces gal is here dreaming again... you see how unrealistic i can be?
| posted by clouds at 12:57 AM
