Monday, February 02, 2004
Went for a movie with P^3 on Sat... "Stuck On You"... Hilarious yet touching... not as crappy as i thought it'll turn out to be... Bob and Walt Tenor have always been stuck together, all of their 32 yrs... and one day, they opted for the operation to separate... in order to let each other lead their own preferred life... all along, they've never been separated, never been apart, and one day, when they lived apart, both of them can't get used to it... i can see how much they depended each on other... and i do hope that one day, i'll get to depend on someone for the rest of my life...
Was supposed to be another gal's nite out, but in the end, mel's busy... oh well, at least i get to spend the rest of the nite hanging out with P^3... sometimes, i just wish i was born 1 yr younger... how it'll be perfect for us then... well, i guess i've grown to feel much comfortable with P^3 nowadays... i can't believe i've been hanging out with him every wkend... maybe hanging out with him makes me forget abt everything that's happening to me, in sch, and everything else!! everything that i dun wish to think abt...
yeap, it's been 1 mth since we got to know each other... he reminded me of it, and he even remembered the time we met... one month only, but it feels like i've known him for an eternity! maybe cos i feel so comfortable around him now? the sad thing is, i know it's impossible for us to be together... becos of all our differences... even if i dun mind abt it all, i think he will still think hard abt it... and i am truly depressed by this... it seems so close, yet so far... i really can't fall in love with u, but yet i felt so much like it... that kind of feeling? argh... i hate it...
then u'll ask me how i felt abt the guy (not P^3 lah) who popped the qn at me last wk? i really don't know anymore... somehow i felt that he waited too long... maybe i'm the type who does things on the impulse... it's either then or never? i don't know, somehow, that problem no longer bugs me as much as the way things are turning out now... didn't hear from him anymore after that fateful day... and i'm no longer sure wat kind of answer to give him anymore... huey told me to think of who's been on my mind more... P^3 or the other guy? i... i know the answer to this now... yet i don't want to accept it, i don't think anything can go on too... but yes, i do know the answer, huey... i just don't want to face it...
why do i seem to be running? running after things i can't catch, and running away from things i don't want to catch up with me? i'm like stuck in the middle of the journey, the end is too far, yet the starting point is equally far... argh!! how long do i get to reach the end? or do i really have to start all over again at the starting pt? *ponder ponder*
| posted by clouds at 12:46 AM
