Wednesday, January 28, 2004
yup, i'm growing fat, i'm sleeping a lot nowadays... just wanna run away from things, just wanna sleep thru the day, dun wanna think abt things... sometimes, it's even more reassuring to talk to P^3 and anyone else than think abt stuff... i hate it when i take the bus alone, i hate it when i have the spare time to dream, to think abt stuff...
sickened by myself... sickened by how he just told me everything and i no longer hear from him anymore... i don't care, watever he does, i don't care anymore! it's so frustrating... i thik he said all those just to make me feel so vexed, and i think he don't even care at all!!
yup, i'm just a "silly gal" as wat P^3 always calls me... maybe i shouldn't take things so hard? like wat happened 13mths ago? maybe if i just stop thinking abt it, it'lll go away? but will it come back and confront me again? just like wat happened last fri? i am confused... i should just not think abt anything... i shall not be the "silly gal" anymore...
| posted by clouds at 1:52 PM
