Saturday, January 31, 2004
Last nite, i stayed up late to finish "Tuesdays with Morrie". i'm sure lotsa u must've heard abt this book, it's definitely a book worth losing sleep over... shed some tears over it... i guess it really touched my heart...
Thinking about death, how to face it... Even when Morrie knew he was about to die, he embraced it positively. No matter wat, the world ain't gonna stop revolving, ppl still fought for their ambitions, their dreams, their emotions... however, if we think abt it, actually, we're all self-centred individuals, who care just about their own world, living in their own fantasy... learning to detach and see the world as a whole is not easy...
Just thinking about the death of my grandpa in relation to this... i guess he might have known his time is up... the way he bathed himself, b4 he passed away... washed his clothes b4 that... i guess he had lived to the fullest by then... and maybe because of that, we shall be happy that he left in peace... without any sickness or pain... yeah, we still do miss him, and my mum does still talk abt him sometimes, i still do think abt him sometimes, but i hope he'll be better off now? seeing him fade away slowly cos he can't absorb most of the nutrients he takes in, it really pains all of us... and maybe we do know that one day we'll lose him, and that saddened us more... and when he's really gone, we still can't believe it... he was still so hale and healthy, except for the fact that he grew thinner with each day...
i guess i've grown to accept it, but i still miss him... and life's full of regret, just like he didn't catch the last glimpse of his family, but i'm glad i did see him for the last time... rest in peace, grandpa... and we'll live stronger than before...
| posted by clouds at 11:53 AM
