Saturday, December 31, 2005
It's gonna be the new yr in less than 20 min time! im not too excited abt it tho.. cos 2006 is starting = school is starting and given such limited time to prepare so much things (cos i have got 31 periods per wk -- max at 35 periods!!) sigh..
I always harbour the deep thot of leaving it all. leaving here to go overseas to study. get a scholarship and study, study, study.. but its 1 big step im not ready to make. cos i hate changes.. somehow i wish i can be more courageous to be more proactive in seeking this route. i guess i will not be doing this anymore. unless im left with noone in the end. that will be the day i will leave this place and stay on my own somewhere where nobody knows me..
why am i feeling so negative now?? i dun understand.. everytime when i feel let down, or when i feel that i've let down on myself and others, this thot of escaping comes along. swallows me up like a black hole and throws me down from the top of the world.
being at home on new yr's eve is not a bad thing, cos i can break away from the crowd and sleep early at the comfort of my own home. yet, some part of me is wishing that i was somewhere else. somewhere with my dear.. but it's not possible. "merry, merry x'mas, lonely, lonely x'mas ..." new yr's eve is jus like my this yr's x'mas eve. just when EVERYONE assumes that u're out with ur bf, i feel so discredited.. cos im NOT.
| posted by clouds at 11:42 PM
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
- Went for a staff retreat at changi chalet b4 x'mas.. It was fun but boring at times.. so scared to step on the toes of the P and nv get into NIE becos of that. hope i didn't do that.. hee.. ended the day with a smashing good dinner/ supper at jalan kayu -- buffalo wings and fish n chips at jerry's.. yum yum..
- been driving around during wkends when the whole family is going out.. and sad to say, i've had minor accidents -- during parking!! LOL.. scratched the in front and behind of the car abit.. i was saying i shd pay for reperations aft more scratches are made.. LOL.. but really pray for good luck and better skills so that i can park better and drive on my own soon. most scared of multistorey carparks and crowded roads (esp little india).
- bought myself a new hp. Sony Ericsson K750i
It has the most wonderful camera. much like the digi cam we had at home. and Singtel offered a free flash which enabled us to take photos even in the dark!
- yesterday went out for a jc class gathering. had dinner at marina sq's cafe cartel.. CR commented that the situation is kinda wierd cos the gals are working while the guysare still schooling. seems like the gals have moved into another stage of their life. i dun feel like it tho.. i still feel really close to school. or rather, i havent really left school. feel so attached to school. i should grow up right? i am already the teacher not the student!!
| posted by clouds at 10:09 AM
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Wishing everyone out there a Merry Christmas! It's a season to love and be loved.. and I'm lovin' it!! LOL..
Last nite had an all gals outing with sushi and gang and Settlers to celebrate X'mas as well as HuLi and Ade's bday.
After that, we walked to boat quay's Mac for a drink and to cut our cake for our Bday gals.
After that, 4 of us Gung ho gals decided to go midnight shopping at orchard. With the crowd coming in at Orchard Mrt Station, we walked in the opposite direction - into the shopping centres. to our disappointment, most of the stores were closed. Why did they call it "midnight shopping" when not all the stores are opened?? So disappointing..So we went around looking for some place to sit and talk. Walked from Taka to Somerset. Sushi suggested Rounge, cos all of us wanted to explore the nice plush interior of Rouge. but to our disappointment, we need to pay a cover charge to enter. Therefore we left the area and kept on walking till we reached Holiday Inn hotel. went in and contemplated going for a drink in their lounge. With the posh environment, we were worried that the drinks will be costly, so we sat outside the lounge at the hotel lobby to talk. LOL.. that's how it gets when we're so poor.. talk and talk till we felt uneasy with the hotel staffs staring at us. so we left to take a cab. Shared a cab among the four of us gals.. it was tiring but fun.. and reached home 1 hour past X'mas Eve.
Hmm.. so how're all of u spending your X'mas eve today?? I'm gonna stay at home to rot.. yawnz. maybe going for a christmas dinner tommorrow? *winks*
| posted by clouds at 12:02 PM
Monday, December 12, 2005
last nite i went to the 1st wedding dinner in my life (1st time gg alone mah).. my colleague's.. had fun cos our table was mostly my clique from level 3!! haha.. i had fun watching how two of them were bickering..
anyway, saw that the bridegroom (my colleague) was so skinny when he was during his army.. but now he's... but it's quite touching to see a wedding taking place.. so heartwarming.. and i can feel their happiness and joy when they were standing on the stage..
i wonder when will it be my turn?? haha.. when i get married, i'll be HAPPINESS CHAN.. haha.. crap..
aft that we went singing at party world.. 1st time go singing with my colleagues, was glad that altho i haven't been singing for so long, i'm not the worst... haha.. then we ended quite late at around 3 am.. still a bit tired for this, but i had fun.. it's a nice gathering and thank god it's the holidays!! yippee!! but its ending soon, next wk.. and i haven't really done anything much.. oops..
ok, and if i do not get to blog again, i wish everyone out there a MErry X' MaS first!!
| posted by clouds at 4:28 PM
Sorry gals, it's been a long time since i last updated.. the comp at home can't be connected to the internet so i haven't been able to update. now using es' comp.
Ever since the other day i ate sushi's butter cake and almond jelly she brought to the chalet, i felt so ashamed that i fa1 fen4 tu2 qiang2 to try to make some of these goodies too.. and i think God must've heard my wishes and i incidentally got to see this brownie demonstration on tv on the day i returned from the chalet.
the brownie tasted more like choc pound cake, but it's still quite chocolately and yummy!! next time when im at home using my comp, i'll post the recipe on my blog.. it's v simple to make, takes just 10 min preparation time, 10 min baking time.. and Voila!!! u get a choc brownie.. hee..
i must thank my asst chef -- actually she does more work, im doing most of the clean up like a maid, haha.. -- my little sis.. and my guinea pig -- es.. he said it'a nice so if it's not nice, then it's his fault.. haha.. ok, so my 1st brownie adventure went ok, so today is a 2nd brownie experience.. will see how other ppl like it?? hee..
| posted by clouds at 4:18 PM
Monday, December 05, 2005
~Chalet~
Been away at a Chalet at Changi.. Really draining.. think i had as much fun as frustrating little things..
First of all let me thank all my frens who've been there.. im sorry im such a lousy host and wasn't feeling too elated at times and lemme assure u its not for reasons related to u all.. quite sick of some stuff which i would not like to say here.. :) Hope u all had a nice meal and nice game.. Quoting Meng Meng : "Can Play Game??" LOL..
then i would like to thank my dearie who've been by my side for these few days, when some of the time when im feeling a bit under the weather.. and thanks for playing with the kids.. im sure they love u as much as i love u.. hee.. and thanks for the hello panda and choc bread and milo!! hee..
ok.. some nice photos dearie would've loved :
| posted by clouds at 9:19 PM
