Monday, June 28, 2004
Nice Sunday today... went out with dear... and he taught me how to play chess... finally i learnt it from the grandmaster himself... hee, must've had a hard time with this difficult student...
it's nice to do some intellectual stuff after letting my mind rest for so long... been doing lots of unintellectual stuff like reading trashy magazines, watching tv, playing neopets (believe it or not?)... sometimes i enjoy preparing dinner, tho i suck at it as well..
yawnz...
haha, today both of us v tired, but still sat around near the national stadium waiting for the fireworks to come, but it didn't... so disappointing... must go on ndp preview day... then will get to see fireworks, hopefully without a crowd...
| posted by clouds at 12:40 AM
Thursday, June 24, 2004
swing swing swing
i just want to swing away form all my troubles
swing swing swing
i want them to go away like they've never come
swing swing swing
away with all the pain u bring
swing swing swing
away with all the tears that flow
swing swing swing
i just want them to fly away with the wind
| posted by clouds at 11:31 PM
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
sorry for the recent absence... been feeling rather down when i'm at home, when i'm on my way to the hospital to visit my granny...
my only granny left, she's down with pancreas cancer (not sure whether this is the term, but it's definitely deadly). last wk, everything was still quite optimistic. altho they have found a tumour in her pancreas, which obstructs the path between the liver and the gall bladder and in the doudonum as well. the tumour is said to be able to removed once the doctor returns and does the surgery. however, things changed when they operated on her...
they found the tumour being wrappped up by major blood vessels, so they are unable to remove the tumour. instead of removing the tumour, they did a minor operation to ease the flow between the liver and the gall bladder and the doudonum area by inserting bypass tubes.
well...
so now they term the tumour as cancer... i hate that word... it means inevitable death. i can't believe we can do nothing but slowly watch her fade away from us. think of all the pain she has to go thru... she haven't even enjoyed her later yrs, with so much to worry abt, having to take care of her playful grandson, while surviving a heart attack a few yrs ago...
well, some say it's fated. but i can't believe i'm going to lose my granny soon, it's not even 1 yr since my grandpa's death... granny also plays an impt role in my growing up yrs...
i used to stayover at granny's hse from 1-3 yrs old... granny took care of me from young. buys my fav chicken rice for me (mind u, i eat the hainanese chicken rice chicken skin + rice only, no meat), brings me to the market, and takes the trishaw back, brings me or with the rest of my cousins to the NTUC to buy stuff... i used to admire her wonderful memory... she can recall how much that pack of kailan cost, or how much that big head of broccolli cost (this is no small feat, i tell u, cos it's not price-tagged, the things u buy from the wet market). she can recite all the price of the grocery, while i help her add it all up on a piece of paper... she knows how to cook up nice dishes like the dumplings, the hakka "suan3 pan2 zi3", the "soon kuehs", the hakka "niang dou fu"... and she is always innovating, finding new ways to cook the traditional dishes, trying new dishes with traditional ingredients...
i know my granny loves all her grandchildren, just like how my grandpa loves us... esp when i was young and stayover some wkends after i started going kindergarten..
well, sometimes it's kinda an escape, when i just wanna hang out with my frens for awhile, away from my mum... but i know now, mum needs us the most, and i'll try to give her support, while she visits granny in the hospital. just when i thot the nightmare is going to end with the removal of the tumour, another worse one has started... i dunno whether it shd end soon so that granny won't suffer from the pain.
haiz...
| posted by clouds at 11:35 PM
Thursday, June 17, 2004
being a "mathematician", dear suddenly struck me with this word-- infinity...
forever and ever, neverending...
if that is infinity, i'll like love to be so
hugs will never be enoough, unless i get infinity amounts of it.
kisses will seem so little, if it's just a finite sum.
if life is limited to a lifetime, i hope love is not limited...
cos i want love to go on and on and on and on...
sighz, nowadays been running out of things to write, been too horrified by how i've been wasting time... arghz!! i'll wait for my creative juices to come back...
| posted by clouds at 12:58 AM
Monday, June 14, 2004
I didn't know that selection of honours project is so early... seems like all my fave lecturers are taken... and my FAVE lecturer gonna retire this mth!! wat luck? haiz.. headache!!
or maybe it's just my own fault.. being a typical procrastinator, that's my retribution.. too bad for me.. maybe i can call Dr Tay YC my gd fren this sem liao? haiz..
yesterday went for a fren's housewarming, hmm... nice little cosy place in punggol... hmm... it's nice to have a nicely decorated, new house rite? hope to have my own house in a few yrs.. 5 yrs? hee... dreamy gal again...
btw, anyone wanna subscribe SCV or MAxOnline? haiz... Still at 0 deal... sure get kicked out soon.. telemarketing is NOT for me...
| posted by clouds at 12:04 PM
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
it's been a really long time since i last worked, on a proper temp job... well, started work today, as a telemarketeer... hmm...
takes a lot of courage to speak to a stranger, and trying to convince someone on the othe end of the phone to take up a starhub package... anyone interested in signing up for SVC? and MaxOnline? hee... haiz... i'm not such a gd sales person... but today's performance was quite satisfying, considering i was a 1st-timer, and din face much rejections... mostly, ppl have already signed up, or are not around... but i guess i can try harder tml... in any case, pple are still willing to listen to me... :) but i din make any sales for today :(
v happy today.. .can't say wat happened, but v v happy... :) someone shd know... *winks*
| posted by clouds at 10:41 PM
Friday, June 04, 2004
it must be getting real boring for some of u... i guess ppl might feel that reading my daily trips gets a bit boring... hmm... still dunno whether u all want me to type all out, guess it gets a bit boring and i get a bit lazy to type out all the things abt my trip...
can u all vote? want 1) full account of my 13 day Aussie trip
2) continuation of my life back in S'pore
3) wat i wanna type at that moment...
hee... a bit the unreasonable, but that's me!! ha ha..
| posted by clouds at 11:50 PM
Thursday, June 03, 2004
23rd May
sunday morning!! we woke up to go fish market for brunch... saw lotsa fresh seafood, yummy!! bought a plate of seafood platter to share with meilin... grilled octopus, fish, prawns, mussels, oysters, scallop, calamari and lotsa chips... woah... another highly fattening meal... hmm, no wonder i gained wt when i come back, sighz.. was enjoying my food when a big fat seagull poooed on my thigh!! yucks!! then, i started hating those cute creatures.. ha ha..
walked by the pier, watched the pelicans, and the seagulls by the water... letting the day pass by...
we then walked to the rocks market, just by the magnificent harbour bridge... saw lotsa nice artistic stuff again, saw the sydney opera house... definitely 100 X better than esplanade, awe-inspiring!! then we took the "rocket express" cruise... no wonder it's called rocket express, we zoomed round at such top speed, that we can't take a proper pic without our hair getting too messed up... sighz.. but really an eye opener...
then went for "pancakes on the rocks" -- yummy pancakes... with ice cream on top... did i say that aust's ice creams are the best? gelato, in fact... see how much i gush abt the food? aiyoh, v bad leh, v fattening :(
then went for ktv session ant gr33n 8ox (greeen box) with percy and yvonne, the 2 bro and sis can really sing! and they have such a nice new collection in aust that i'm quite amazed... hmm... definitely better than cha xuan...
23rd may, my 2nd mth anniversary with es, and i'm away... sorry dear... but yes, i miss u lots...
| posted by clouds at 10:16 AM
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
travelling is fun, esp when u're travelling with a bunch of frens... long story to tell, hmm... pardon me if it goes abit disorganised.. hee..
Sydney-- our 1st stop
20th may -- 1st day in Sydney
reached sydney at around 7pm (sydney time) the sky was dark, the wind was strong... chilling but nice... nice breathing a whole new air... nice to feel away from home... nice.. only for that moment.. met percy -- Mel's friend -- at the airport, and he brought us back to his apartment.. nice and cosy little place where he stays with his sis... went for sze chuan steamboat aft we dropped off our baggage, and walked around darling harbour a bit.. the scenery was beautiful, and i'm taking everything in with my sense of sight... the weather seems so nice, the seagulls seem so cute, the little lone duckling swimming in the pond... nice and tranquil feeling, away from home, away from dear? went visit the star city casino, lost 1 buck on jackpot... lady luck not shining on me... meilin won 1 buck and percy won 3 bucks... ha ha.. so we sorta won, in the end..
21st may -- 2nd day in Sydney
woke up with the sun shining on our butts... ha ha.. literally.. woke up at ard 10 am, to see the sun shining so high up.. time to do a little exploring on our own... 3 gungho gals, each armed with a sydney city map, ready to do some exploring.. went to find the YHA to book our 1 day tour trips for melbourne, met up with meilin's fren staying in sydney, went eat at their foodcourt, and went shopping-- as usual. saw the sydney tower, saw queen victoria building, saw their supermarket (woolsworth AKA woolies), then realised that the yummy tim tams are actually originated from Australia... hee... bought a pack to eat... and we stocked up on our groceries (fruits esp...) dinner was at a korean restaurant, steaming hot and spicy hotpot... percy's sis, yvonne's treat... then we made a trip down chinatown, the nightmarket there was vibrant, lotsa stalls selling woolen scarfs, handicrafts, jewellery etc... yah, like our pasar malam loh.... surprising, the chinese restuarants along chinatown was packed.. and percy said, these restaurants must be quite gd in order to open in australia... hmm.. so far, so good.. ha ha..
22nd may -- 3rd day in sydney
sat morning... planning to go Paddington's mkt (i thot i might gonna be one of the bazaar like place again)... we went for breakfast at some real cosy little place near Paddington... breakfast was a delight... bacon, scrambled eggs, toasted bread and lotsa salad, i had earl grey tea as well... yummylicious!! aft that, full steam towards the colourful Paddington mkt (open only on Sat)... saw lotsa artistic stuff done by the locals-- t-shirts designed by the creative ppl, handicrafts, jewellery (saw this necklace with a small dried flower framed in a small pendant which i quite liked, but felt it wasn't really worth the money, so din buy)... hmm, how i wished i had the artistic talent, how i wish i could be able to set up a stall there to sell my poems, my handicrafts, my ideas.. pretty neat eh? then we visited Woolies again to buy food for dinner... percy's the chef for the nite, he taught us how to cook spaghetti (nice and yummy) and steak... had a hearty homecooked dinner, really nice and homely feeling...
yawnz, sorry frens, i'll continue my aussie trip soon, cos i am really v tired for today... huey, meet u one of these days to show u the photos... oops, but i might be working soon ;) c u ard!!
| posted by clouds at 11:50 PM
The distance has never been greater
The days have never passed slower
The nights have never been longer
The handphone has never been quieter
The loneliness has never been stronger
The tears have never flown easier
The heart has never been fonder
And i have never been more sure about who i want in my life
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no, the above poem not done by me... seems like my dear has attained a higher level in poetry thru the days i'm away... dear, u made me cry the most today, and the few hrs together will nv be enough to recover the 13 days we lost out to in each other's life...
| posted by clouds at 11:35 PM
