Sunday, March 21, 2004
am i too emotional? but i am easily touched... he said dun treat him too well, he's afraid he'll fall in love with me... in fact, i'm rather flattered by the way he's treating me... he said yun yun's a gd gal, and he thinks he's not gd enuf for me... on the other hand, i really think i'm not gd enuf for him... tears are coming to my eyes now, i can feel my heart pumping so quickly, but yah, he was just telling me all these over msn... and this aftnoon he was smsing me arrangements for the grp meeting tml... and he said i'll make a gd wife, ask me not to treat him too well, else he'll fall in love with me...
he is mr liquid paper man, my sec 2 classmate. recently we've been hanging out quite often in sch, always see him on the bus, or maybe meet him for lunch together with the other gals... he's not gd looking, but i know he's one dedicated guy, one who will love the one he loves wholeheartedly, gives in his 100% attn if he loves a gal... he's a romantic and gentlemanly chap, tho he can suan me like crazy, but at least i can also suan him back without caring i'll hurt his feelings... and did i mention he's romantic? aww~~ u know that's wat i've been looking forward to? but i know i'm not gd enuf for him, i'm not a caring person, i'm super act cute, super vain, super shallow, and i'm scared i'm not dedicated enuf... i told him, dun treat me too well, i'm afraid of falling for u as well...
u know how it is, when suddenly u get to contact back an old fren, all the novelty of catching up with him just comes so quickly, like u wanna know all abt him? and u get excited that he msgs u saying he miss seeing me online or in sch? i know it all started out as just playing with each other, and at 1st i really did not reciprocate.. nowadays, i think i'm starting to flirt with him...do i really miss him like i said i do? kinda hard to decipher how i feel myself... but isn't it fantastic to be able to click so well with someone all of the sudden?
i promised myself, not to love a person unless he loves me... and i guess that's really selfish of me to think this way... so we'll see whether he's just kidding or really falling for me... maybe aft he gives me his 100 % love, i'll give him my 101 % love... i just hope i do not start avoiding him and start withdrawing myself from him ever onwards.. we're gd frens, really... and i do hope things do not change for the worse... i hope it gets better?
miss ya lots, dear quid... slightly more than 10 hrs to meeting u... --> i really dunno whether i mean it or not...
| posted by clouds at 1:32 AM
