Monday, December 22, 2003
Hmm... not so sure whether that's how u say... u know, all along i tot i'm the slowest at things such as gossips... now, even tho i'm no longer in CBLC. i'm quite glad i'm more clear about the recent gossips... hmm... shall not divulge too much, but just quite happy that i struck GOLD!! on ppl's blog!! oops...
i've read a blog on someone having a crush one someone (i know the 2 persons!)... well, i guess i share the sentiments for my 1st crush... well, for now, i dun think i'm feeling any tingling feeling even if i see him... just plain happy to see an old friend, u know... but well, i took a long time to get over it ok? so, even tho the person (whom i can't reveal down here) is contemplating on whether to let the guy know her feelings... i guess it'll soon die down if the guy doesn't reciprocate, or doesn't seem interested... from experience ok? i'm quite glad tho that i've been thru the crush state, and survived... nevertheless, some of the experience will definitely be on my mind forever -- the Social Nite at OCS, the dark sky with lotsa sparkling stars all over, the moments of having only him by my side, just plain talking or even enjoying the silence... i'll never forget.
yet i'll never want to experience it with him anymore... he's no longer my crush... looking forward to feeling the sea breeze, under the dark nite skies with HS again? admiring him rollerblade? sitting in the passenger seat while he shows me the techniques to driving... kinda missed all these... hmm... not so much now... i'm tired... tired of thinking things that never will come true... things that will come true? i hope they'll never come true... like me gonna fail my driving this time round... at the rate i'm driving ever so recklessly, i'm sure nobody'll let me pass... ha ha...
3 days to x'mas... 3 more days before i swear myself off talking abt HS... i shall move on... i think i did wat i could already... i mailed him a x'mas card last fri, he shld've received it by now... let this be the last entry with HS in it?
been missing Nit quite a bit... when are u coming back dear? hopes of hanging out with Nit during the holidays were dashed, when she said she'll be away for the whole of Dec... sighz...
been missing ling quite a bit too... how're u? miss hanging out with u... missed sharing the gossips, missed ur advices, missed sitting by the riverside, just watching the world go by... when do u need to buy any clothes? do ask me leh! i'll be around to help u with it! ;)
i shall not say i miss HS... i try not to feel that way, but i really do miss him a bit... wanna see his smile again... gimme 3 more days to indulge in it! just 3 more days...
| posted by clouds at 8:06 PM
