Friday, July 30, 2004
drizzl, drizzle, drizzle...
the rain never stops, ur love never ends.
Last night was raining endlessly when my tuition ended at Serenity Park. someone turned up at the gate to pick me up. Some silly boy, with his big pokka-dotted, red-handled umbrella, in his track shoes(?), ungelled hair, blue toothpaste-stained bermudas, and red t-shirt was waiting for me at the gates of Serenity Park.
i can't help grinning, when i see this tall guy holding the big warm umbrella, waiting for me. surprised, and happy that i get to see him yesterday. trying not to miss him, but i can't help feeling that way. he said to send me home, though his home is definitely nearer (just 5 min walk away) . but i couldn't bear to leave him, esp when he has this cute grin on his face, and his super goofy image. so i let him get on the bus with me, despite him having run the risk of missing his favourite show. held his hands, his pair of big warm hands, warms my hands all the way to my heart.
gave this tall, dark guy a big fat kiss, and a kiss combo... gave him a quick hug, and longing stare.. said bye bye to him and asked him to hustle off, back home to watch his show..
last nite was one of the best nite ever! even after tuition, i dun feel tired, even in the big rain, with wet toes, i'm not a bit wet on my body. even not having seen my dear for the whole day till nite, i still feel great. nope, i'm not having a fling... cos the silly tall dark guy happens to be my sturdy ah boy, who pulls funny surprises, and kisses me gdnite at the stairway, on msn, on sms..
*muacks*
love u dear.
| posted by clouds at 11:53 PM
tml not going to watch the fireworks anymore... wat irony? haiz... anyway, was hoping to get nit and huey to watch at Tanjong Rhu, but well, turns out that they couldn't make it tml..
nvm, i'll just stay at home and watch the fireworks... it's a bit far, but can see quite clearly... who wanna come my hse and watch? haha.. anyway, changed the fireworks-watching with nit and huey to Sunday at Esplanade... finally the 3 of us can get to watch fireworks together!
hee.. suddenly getting v gian with watching-fireworks, i just wanna share the nice things with all my frens out there.. somehow, its really the kind of spectacular, emotional feeling, the kind of undescribable feeling. shd try it with ur best frens, it's really a heartwarming experience.
see the dark night sky, light up with the sparkling pyrotechnics,
the sparking gems, the diamonds in the dark night sky,
all the excitement causing breathlessness,
all the boom boom boom in the sky,
the screaming in the heart, more more and more of the colourful flowers in the sky,
all the orange, yellow, red, green, blue...
all the warmth, all the glitter...
ooh...
oops, sounds a bit erotic in the last few lines... sorry :P
| posted by clouds at 10:58 PM
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Met Mel and Meilin at Marche for dinner last nite... cos mel is finally back from her trip to France... she spent 1 month with her bf, travelling to PAris, Spain... so envious!!
She showed us her photos from her trip... Paris eiffel tower, Disneyland, Bullfighting in Barcelona, Musuem visits, Dinners at French restaurants... all her funny stories about her bf having a chipped front tooth cos she accidentally knocked into him while kissing, all the things she did secretly for him on his bday... i'm glad she had fun :) tho she did feel rather depressed and unwilling to leave her french bf at the airport...
then we went Alley Bar, some pub opp Specialist Centre for some drinks and continued with our gossips.. haha.. catching up with current stuff in our lives, comparing notes on our bfs... haha... had fun, but got a bit carried away and left for home only at 1120pm... luckily i took only 45 min to reach home..
today went for ktv with dear and my sec sch gang... it's been a rather long time since i sang to my heart's content... hee.. then took a long long bus ride to compass pt for the long awaited Sakura... hmm.. food was ok, i still prefer the zhu chao near my place... sorry dear..
was actually talking about watching the fireworks at Lao Di Fang again... this time with huey and a few other frens... thinking of celebrating nit's bday then, but well, she going m'sia then.. so disappointed... but still hope we'll enjoy ourselves the coming sat... our girls' nite out.. we're having a picnic under the stars and fireworks!! romantic? i like!!
| posted by clouds at 11:33 PM
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Are long-distance relationships that scary? i would feel so.. i had a few frens who're either in a long-distance relationship or going into one soon... and listening to them talk about it, my heart really goes out to them.. i think i'm starting to get overly dependent on my bf... which is not a gd thing, on the other hand, i'm loving all the attention he showers on me, all the words of concern, all the surprises... nevertheless, i'm starting to enjoy cooking dinner at home, cos i know it's a v gd chance for me to practice my cooking skills :)
is there a day we'll be separated physically by miles and miles of land and sea? i hope that day never comes...
Ken is going away soon, going back to US for studies, leaving his gf back here in S'pore.. and i really feel for the both of them.. but he impressed me by saying:
"if u are bound to be together, fate will make the way for u both to be together, but if not, then u will find that u were not meant for each other somewhere in between the relationship
so either way, being together physically and away has no difference, as long u kno u both love each other, its all that matters
and more, i think being away is a practice to be dependent without her.. if we both can, we'll be even stronger went the time comes, when we are physically together.."
well, i guess going into a relationship really narrows my mind.. cos i know dear will always be here for me, doesn't mean everyone else's bf has to be.. cos there are a lot of other couples who are separated from each other, by miles and miles.. and i think i've been taking everything given to me for granted.. thanks dear..
| posted by clouds at 9:43 PM
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
| posted by clouds at 10:42 AM
Monday, July 19, 2004
i kept the story below in my email for quite sometime, and just read it this morning... yup, was truly touched by it, hope it does the same to you ppl out there.
There was a young woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal illness and had been given three months to live. So as she was getting her things "in order," she contacted her Pastor and had him come to her house to discuss certain aspects of her final wishes.
She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service, what scriptures she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in.
Everything was in order and the Pastor was preparing to leave when the young woman suddenly remembered something very important to her.
"There's one more thing," she said excitedly. "What' that?" came the Pastor's reply. "This is very important," the young woman continued. "I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand."
The Pastor stood looking at the young woman, not knowing quite what to say. That surprises you, doesn't it?" the young woman asked. "Well, to be honest, I'm puzzled by the request," said the Pastor.
The young woman explained. "My grandmother once told me this story, and from that time on I have always tried to pass along its message to those I love and those who are in need of encouragement.
In all my years of attending socials and dinners, I always remember that when the dishes of the main course were being cleared, someone would inevitably lean over and say, 'Keep your fork.' It was my favorite part because I knew that something better was coming...like velvety chocolate cake or deep-dish apple pie - something wonderful, and with substance!'
So, I just want people to see me there in that casket with a fork in my hand and I want them to wonder "What's with the fork?" Then I want you to tell them: "Keep your fork...the best is yet to come."
The Pastor's eyes welled up with tears of joy as he hugged the young woman good-bye. He knew this would be one of the last times he would see her before her death. But he also knew that the young woman had a better grasp of heaven than he did. She had a better grasp of what heaven would be like than many people twice her age, with twice as much experience and knowledge.
She KNEW that something better was coming. At the funeral people were walking by the young woman's casket and they saw the cloak she was wearing and the fork placed in her right hand. Over and over, the Pastor heard the question, "What's with the fork?" And over and over he smiled.
During his message, the Pastor told the people of the conversation he had with the young woman shortly before she died. He also told them about the fork and about what it symbolized to her. He told the people how he could not stop thinking about the fork and told them that they probably would not be able to stop thinking about it either.
He was right. So the next time you reach down for your fork let it remind you, ever so gently, that the best is yet to come. Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us. Show your friends how much you care. Remember to always be there for them, even when you need them more. For you never know when it may be their time to "Keep your fork."
Cherish the time you have, and the memories you share, being friends with someone is not an opportunity but a sweet responsibility.
Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND even if it means sending back to the person who sent it to you.
And keep your fork.
| posted by clouds at 9:58 AM
Sunday, July 18, 2004
it always gives me this type of feeling... exhilarating, awe-inspiring, spectacular, motivating... oops... sorry, i'm getting a bit carried away...
just found out yesterday that today is the NE show, meaning they'll be performing the NDP for the Pri sch students to watch. so we had a contingency plan to watch the fireworks this evening at our newly-discovered huant. my dear met me after my tuition at 5 pm to go have dinner, then we went shopping for snacks and drinks before taking a bus down to tanjong rhu. (oops, slipped the name of our perfect-fireworks-viewing site). anyway, it's a comfortable distance from the National Stadium, so we can even see the low low fireworks!! furthermore, it's not even crowded... but the mosquitoes there are irritating, donated some blood to the blood-suckers there.. haiz..
but on the whole, it's a wonderful experience, to be watching the fireworks in dear's arms, to be so near the fireworks, to hear it so loud, to see it so clear...
to sum it up, today's experience was "v nice, v big, v near, v loud" haha... quite lame rite? think dear knows wat it means?
| posted by clouds at 12:01 AM
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
"when u close ur eyes and can hear the heart beat, then u know the person u love loves u.
when u close ur eyes, and there is a smile on ur face, then u know the person u love loves u"
~The Classic
just watched "The Classic" this morning with dear at my house. It's indeed a very romantic and touching Korean movie. Though i haven't heard of it when it's been released in the theatres (or did it?), but it's really a film worth catching, again and again and again...
today cooked lunch for dear...
then after lunch, we watched "Cold Mountain". today is "movie marathon day"... haha... with lotsa anticipation, due to all the oohs and aahhs when the show came out in the theatres before, we started watching the 150 min show... hmm... but it was super disappointing. we started yawning when the show was on for barely half an hour :P hmm... din know why it was so boring... such a contrast to "The Classic".
hee... such a wonderful day, just spending the time watching movies, cooking for the one i love... how i hope i can do this everyday- just hanging around at home, doing chores, cooking, with dear helping me out... :)
| posted by clouds at 10:06 PM
Friday, July 09, 2004
don't mistake me, i'm not graduating this semester, tho i very much wanted to... thinking of all the "chim chim" materials for my honours project that i've been procrastinating since the beginning of july, i really had the urge to put on the graduation gown this semester... too late, too late liao...
took photos with huey in her graduation gown... we're all in a joyful mood, seeing everyone in their graduation gown, i feel the relief in all these graduates... no more overnites in sch to do projects, no more tutorials, no more boring lectures... but well, they're on to a next stage in life... a more challenging one. no more skipping of lectures, no more homeworks, but yet more work-- projects, deadlines, overtimes... there 're always things u give up when u gain some...
i've never seen huey with such a sparkle in her eyes... this is the moment everyone has been waiting for. the moment to put on the graduation gown, be on the stage to receive ur own scroll... soon, it'll be my turn... soon, 1 yr later... :)
looking forward to graduating, looking forward to the next phase in my life, yet i'm not so sure whether i should welcome the change... i m such a troublesome individual eh??
| posted by clouds at 8:39 PM
Monday, July 05, 2004
been so busy nowadays... got back my usual tuition level, means 2 jc kids, 1 sec sch kid... hmm, prefer teaching jc kids, at least i get to think more... at least i do not sit down there and stare at them and try not to doze off... at least im not underpaid...
i hate myself sometimes, always such a whiner, always complain, complain, complain... typical singaporean...
today i'm feeling slightly depressed... 1st with the morning agonising facial session, took so long and so painful!! and then i signed up for another facial package since mine is ending soon... so now, i'm broke, physically and financially...
then i ended up eating my lunch only at 4pm... all becos of the stupid beautician (altho i shd say she's being rather thorough, that's why so painful...) i almost fainted on my way home... haiz... no wonder i so grouchy the whole day.
then i had tuition, my underpaid tuition... v tired cos i din get to rest during facial, so i was a bit impatient, a bit harsh on my poor sec 3 gal... but the worst part was after tuition... i was walking downstairs, on my way back home, and indian teenager asked me: "AUNTIE, got coins for $2?" i was so shocked after i heard, i just shook my head and walked off... i look v auntie meh? i'm not even dressed v auntie to begin with!! is v neck t-shirt + bermudas v auntie??? wat a way to end my day... must be my retribution for not meeting my dear on his bday today...haiz... sorry dear...
| posted by clouds at 9:50 PM
Thursday, July 01, 2004
hee..
yesterday went shopping with ling at Funan. she wanted to get Digi Cam and a printer... so we went to have lunch before that...
lunch was quite horrible. we din really enjoy ourself at that north indian restuarant... we had buffet lunch at $10.90 nett. the food was really not too fulfilling? the dessert was horrible, or maybe we're just not used to eating indian food.. well, nvm, need to get our tummy filled before we hit the stores! haha..
then we went ard to check out the prices for the canon printer ling had been eyeing on... and then we came round to this store which sells all comp related stuff..
the guy there was v enthusiastic, promoting the fujifilm digi cam... showing us how easy, user-friendly it is. yup, v v intereting... i love that digi cam too! and then there's the instant camera too as free gift. wow!! and then ling bargained for a cheaper deal since she wanted to get the printer there as well..
so, she ended up with the purchases-- a big box of printer, 2 bags of free gifts and the cameras... the v friendly, helpful and considerate salesman helped us carry the box and bags of goodies down to the taxi stand, flagged a cab for us... we're v impressed with his customer-oriented spirit. going all out for ling, even tho we took some time to get all the purchases settled. applause to Micheal! (issit?)
btw, it was his last day at the shop, he told us. some graduate from NTU, he said he'll be going for a perm job today... hmm... which means u all won't get to see him anymore at Funan? hmm... i really like to commend his work attitude! :)
| posted by clouds at 10:05 AM
