Wednesday, March 28, 2007
~ i will be positive ~
I guess i have been too negative. that's me when i'm in school. When i step out of school i shall let whatever that puts me down, bring me up again. I will think back at why i chose this path in the 1st place. i shall never disappoint those who love and support me.if i need to let off some steam, i'll just watch some korean dramas and laugh or cry my head off. otherwise, i would just go for bodycombat sessions to hit some imaginary targets. no time, no time.. looking forward to next wk.. it's good friday!! yippee!!!
The only way to do great work is to love what you do.
Do not settle for anything less!
| posted by clouds at 9:44 PM
Monday, March 26, 2007
~ Updates ~
After viewing ah ma's blog, i realise i havent been updating alot on my life recently as well.i'm currently doing practicum.. very afraid that i won't be able to pass. i guess that's me. i take a long time to warm up. maybe that's why i did not manage to pass my contract teaching at 1st go. should i have quit after the 1st semester of lousy contract teaching? that way, i would've missed out on the fun time i had with my 1E1 (2006), 3TB, 2NA, 2E3 last yr. and 1E1 has been the driving force for me all these while. yet, i am once again unsure.. whenever i lose direction, whenever i lose faith in all these, i will look through the photos that we shared, the videos that i took and the videos that i was given.. why in the 1st place would i have stayed so long? i love them.. i love the students, i love teaching.. but why am i having second thoughts now?
one happy thing that happened to me was that i will own a flat soon.. yes, we've already booked a flat at compassvale, if u havent heard of the news. however, the flat will not come so soon.. it's still a flat barren land at the moment..
of course, my relationship with es so far has been going quite smoothly. both of us are so busy, we meet each other once a week only.. but i tink it's sufficient.. as long as we spend quality time together.. :) sometimes, i feel so stressed up, that i havent been msging him either.. but i hope he understands..
friends-wise, i'm so sorry to say that i havent met up with M n M since Feb, but i was glad to have a wonderful outing with butterfly, pee, general, n general's bf to drink tea. tea chapter is a great place to sit, relax, play games and have fun.. also spent (wasted) some time with ling walking around bugis, eating most of the time during my 1 wk break.. but it was great talking to ling.. i tink i also learnt alot from her..
here i am sitting at the physics lab, waiting for the students to come in.. i feel rather depressed once again. what will i do to them? what will they do to me? i really come in peace, and i really hope to go in peace.. why can't we make peace with each other?
| posted by clouds at 11:38 AM
Saturday, March 24, 2007
~ My Girl OST ~
Been watching a few episodes of this drama.. nice! funny and touching at the same time.. and the song really brings in the mood..
I guess Korean dramas always choose their songs so appropriately, so much so it fits the mood of the drama. :)
| posted by clouds at 6:40 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
~ I shall not be defeated ~
Recently, my MSN nick has been a bit gloomy.. yup, i do agree i feel rather discouraged at times. but after awhile, i know i have to stand up and do what i need to do.These two years are the most significant "growing up" years for me.. there are ups and downs, mostly DOWNS which really train me to reflect on my actions and improve myself. my inability to build a rapport with the students i meet now makes me really depressed.. and it makes me look back at what i did wrong now and what i did correct in the past. maybe time is what i need. but i am running out of time.
how do things turn sour? my fierce look and loud voice is to protect myself. and i think that created a barrier between us. the more i feel intimidated, the more i want to protect myself. the more i try to protect myself, the greater the barrier becomes.
i am glad to have my students who showed their appreciation before, and i am glad that i made a difference in their life. when will i be able to break down the barriers i have created unknowingly? when will i be able to get through to them?
"Respect is earned, not given" I think i am greedy.. i want respect but i did not make appropriate steps to earn it. i hope i will succeed one day. SOON..
| posted by clouds at 11:06 PM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
~ 99分的幸福 ~
Sweet sweet song..
not that i like yuan ruo lan.. and the Anthony, i have never seen before.. lol..
（女） 你说手牵手会超过37度
拥抱时会加快心跳速度
随着感动漫步闭上眼睛也都能看清楚
（男） 越想往前越可能原地踏步
你是我还未完成的拼图
我猜偶尔的争吵也是礼物
学会体贴才能让你感到幸福
（合） 只要幸福99分
我努力满分
留一分给爱慢慢加温
吵着 笑着 耐心等
每天分回忆得像被
贴满缤纷
我的幸福99分
留点会满分
留一分我等明天清晨
谁说钻石才永恒
你让我从平凡变成特别的人
（女） 情人节该到巴黎还是新宿
你就是我最浪漫的地图
99分的幸福
只差一步还差一步
我们就能看到全部
只要幸福99分
我努力满分
留一分给爱慢慢加温
吵着 笑着 耐心等
每天分回忆得像被
贴满缤纷
我的幸福99分
留点会满分
留一分我等明天清晨
谁说钻石才永恒
你让我从平凡变成特别的人
不求十全十美
才有机会完美
用温柔盖座堡垒
经得起雨打风吹
经过了冰释不会才懂爱多坚决
只要幸福99分
我努力满分
留一分给爱慢慢加温
吵着 笑着 耐心等
每天分回忆得像被
贴满缤纷
我的幸福99分
留点会满分
留一分我等明天清晨
谁说钻石才永恒
你让我从平凡变成特别的人
因为有你 让我变成最最特别的人
| posted by clouds at 6:26 PM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
~ What major is right for you? ~
| You scored as English/Journalism/Comm. You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Communication, English, Film, Journalism, Literature, or Writing. It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.
Makes me wonder, am i in the right profession? Sometimes it is really rather discouraging.. well.. this is the time.. i can feel it myself.. i think my end is near.. haha.. dunno what gibberish i'm talking about in the middle of the night.. We shall see.. i will jia you!!! |
| posted by clouds at 1:22 AM
Saturday, March 17, 2007
~ 最浪漫的事 ~
This morning, when i was on my way to the bus stop, i saw an old couple walking slowly along the pavement in front of me. I saw that they were holding their hands, supporting each other along the way... such a touching sight..I don't know why, but i always feel very touched when i see old couples holding their hands.. it's such a subtle way to show how they are still so connected and linked to each other even after time has gone by, their affection are still as close..
And this is what i hope i will achieve as well, described so vividly by this 赵咏华's song:
背靠着背坐在地毯上
听听音乐聊聊愿望
你希望我越来越温柔
我希望你放我在心上
你说想送我个浪漫的梦想
谢谢我带你找到天堂
哪怕用一辈子才能完成
只要我讲你就记住不忘
我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑
留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事
就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老得哪儿也去不了
你还依然把我当成手心里的宝
| posted by clouds at 1:09 AM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
~ Collages ~
Was going through my past photos and found this Collage maker software.. so i made some collages from my photo archives, fun!
| posted by clouds at 8:04 PM
~ Happy Birthday to me! ~
I just had my bday celebrations the past two days.. if you forgot, i understand you are not free to send me bday wishes..and thanks to those who sent Birthday wishes and gave me gifts.. :) I love u all!
Prima deli Mango Cake --> Yummy!!
(Not-so-yummy) Lunch at Vivocity
Thanks to all of you!! you are very much appreciated. :)
| posted by clouds at 7:57 PM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
~ Hello Kitty Goods ~
Saw on an online shopping website these cutie goods: *Droolz* So sweet right? but will be crazy to buy it, since it's quite overpriced.. I'm a rational shopper ok? Though i must admit i buy stupid things as well.. hee..
| posted by clouds at 8:11 PM
