Thursday, March 22, 2007
~ I shall not be defeated ~
Recently, my MSN nick has been a bit gloomy.. yup, i do agree i feel rather discouraged at times. but after awhile, i know i have to stand up and do what i need to do.These two years are the most significant "growing up" years for me.. there are ups and downs, mostly DOWNS which really train me to reflect on my actions and improve myself. my inability to build a rapport with the students i meet now makes me really depressed.. and it makes me look back at what i did wrong now and what i did correct in the past. maybe time is what i need. but i am running out of time.
how do things turn sour? my fierce look and loud voice is to protect myself. and i think that created a barrier between us. the more i feel intimidated, the more i want to protect myself. the more i try to protect myself, the greater the barrier becomes.
i am glad to have my students who showed their appreciation before, and i am glad that i made a difference in their life. when will i be able to break down the barriers i have created unknowingly? when will i be able to get through to them?
"Respect is earned, not given" I think i am greedy.. i want respect but i did not make appropriate steps to earn it. i hope i will succeed one day. SOON..
| posted by clouds at 11:06 PM
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arti-47 had this to say:
加油！！I'm sure you will make a wonderful teacher! :D
