Monday, March 26, 2007
~ Updates ~
After viewing ah ma's blog, i realise i havent been updating alot on my life recently as well.i'm currently doing practicum.. very afraid that i won't be able to pass. i guess that's me. i take a long time to warm up. maybe that's why i did not manage to pass my contract teaching at 1st go. should i have quit after the 1st semester of lousy contract teaching? that way, i would've missed out on the fun time i had with my 1E1 (2006), 3TB, 2NA, 2E3 last yr. and 1E1 has been the driving force for me all these while. yet, i am once again unsure.. whenever i lose direction, whenever i lose faith in all these, i will look through the photos that we shared, the videos that i took and the videos that i was given.. why in the 1st place would i have stayed so long? i love them.. i love the students, i love teaching.. but why am i having second thoughts now?
one happy thing that happened to me was that i will own a flat soon.. yes, we've already booked a flat at compassvale, if u havent heard of the news. however, the flat will not come so soon.. it's still a flat barren land at the moment..
of course, my relationship with es so far has been going quite smoothly. both of us are so busy, we meet each other once a week only.. but i tink it's sufficient.. as long as we spend quality time together.. :) sometimes, i feel so stressed up, that i havent been msging him either.. but i hope he understands..
friends-wise, i'm so sorry to say that i havent met up with M n M since Feb, but i was glad to have a wonderful outing with butterfly, pee, general, n general's bf to drink tea. tea chapter is a great place to sit, relax, play games and have fun.. also spent (wasted) some time with ling walking around bugis, eating most of the time during my 1 wk break.. but it was great talking to ling.. i tink i also learnt alot from her..
here i am sitting at the physics lab, waiting for the students to come in.. i feel rather depressed once again. what will i do to them? what will they do to me? i really come in peace, and i really hope to go in peace.. why can't we make peace with each other?
| posted by clouds at 11:38 AM
