Sunday, July 23, 2006
I have been complaining about people who always leave you gradually. Slowly they'll contact you less and less often until they degrade to friends who call on you only when they need help. but i feel that this kind of parting is better than the abrupt parting i experienced when i'm leaving my contract sch.
it's always hard to leave ur colleagues, whom you've been thru many ups and downs with, slogged thru various projects, bitch abt other people. so much so i think we've become frens more than just working partners.
and i thought i won't be as hard to leave ur students, but i'm wrong, it's harder to leave the students than colleagues! maybe it's becos they show their emotions so real and true to u. even the quiet ones. their tears are so real, their sorrow so near.. i tried not to cry, i tried to put on a strong front, reassured them that i'll be back. but in the end i failed to retain the tears, when this gal asked the sec 1 band members to play a song for me.. standing in front taking all in, i can't hold back my tears, when i see them cry while they play my song.
21st of july, the last day of the yr i can see the flag raising ceremony in school. 21st of july is a day of tears and well wishes.
probably this day is the day where i am made more determined to be a teacher. it showed me the returns of being a teacher, and being appreciated. and it moved me and told me that teaching is no longer just a job.
a teacher is a mother, a tutor, a motivator, a companion, a social worker.. a teacher is more!
seriously, i feel that the reson of they being so unwilling for me to leave when they said cos i treat them so well, is that i'm not strict enough, im not fierce enough. maybe i can teach, but the class too noisy to show my flair.. nvm, it's a lesson learned!
| posted by clouds at 1:17 AM
