Thursday, February 17, 2005
i got a new tuition kid.. and indian gal from srjc.. she made more motivated to give tuition..
i've been giving tuition for such a long time, that it seems like i'm just earning my pocket money thru tuition (which is true), but the satisfaction of seeing my tuition kids improve is also one of the motivating factor to keep me going.. of cos, it's very discouraging to have kids who sack me after a few months.. or even after the 1st lesson.. and i've already sensed it on the lesson itself.. the type of kid who will "sack" me are 1) not interested in learning 2)dun understand wat im talking abt becos they dun go for lectures 3)find me boring, monotonous etc.. which is true.. haha.. but if given kids who are keen to improve on their grades, push themsleves to understand the material, im very happy to give them all my attention..
i've been teaching this indian gal for 3 times, going on to the 4th this coming sunday.. the 1st impression of her is she's not hopeless, she's keen on improvement, and tries very hard to understand wat is being taught, however, her problem is in application part bah.. overall, still not too late to pull up her grades.. on my 3rd lesson, her mum, an indian lady, gave me an ang pow!! even tho they shdn't have, altho it's the CNY.. so i was delighted on that day, furthermore, it's $15 (altho odd an odd sum, but still v happy)!!
and there's this day i was asking her whether she has her integration test coming up, and she told me : "we din hav our integration test so far. but i got back my curve sketching results and i got a C, im quite satisfied with the C lah, cuz this is the 1st time i got above a D for my math test. thx 4 the coaching in that topic. really found it very helpful :)" boy, i was touched.. 1st time to see this kind of appreciation shown to me, the tuition teacher.. well, not really, the other time was my tuition kid who called me from australia straight after getting his O level results and telling me his improvement.. i was very touched as well.. it keeps me going.. and makes my effort worthwhile.. if i can't get a job, i will give tuition full time.. hee..
| posted by clouds at 2:03 PM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Happy Chinese New YR!! sorry all, been too caught up with celebrating Vday and i keep posting V day things without wishing happy CNY 1st.. anyway, i hope everyone had fun enjoying the 2 holidays of CNY as well as the weekend that came straight after that..
well, CNY for me is another time for stuffing and pigging out.. and true enough, i've been stuffing myself since CNY eve.. *sad sad* asked some of my friends over for steamboat on 2nd day of CNY.. my ah boy v guai, came over early to come and help out with the work, tho i think he didn't help much other than putting up some stuff in the high cabinet hee.. but i think he must've enjoyed himself thoroughly, with the little cousins who came over too for steamboat.. they were clinging on to him like they got stuck to him with SUPER GLUE!! haha.. of cos lah, my ah boy like a big tree, the little monkeys just wanna climb onto him.. haha.. i took a photo of him with the 3 monkeys, shall let u all see it once i got it developed, i think u all will love it.. haha.. v funny, v cute one!! wahaha..
anyway, the other day, i promised my ah boy, i will start putting a small bottle of medicated oil into my bag, for his use (cos dear has got sensitive nose and skin), so i finally got it today.. sorry for the delay.. it's funny how things have changed.. 1 yr ago, who would've thot i would stock up on medicated oil, tissues, nice writing paper and receive little cute things now and then. just now mum was saying to me, after seeing all the things i received for Vday, that it's my 1st yr receiving a V-day card and all the lovey-dovey little cute things.. thanx dear, for the wonderful yr we've been thru, i promise i'll go ur house for a visit next yr for CNY, and maybe ur ah ma's hse too ($_$) hahaha.. no lah, just ur house will do..
oops, i didn't get anything for my dear for V-day, and now it's round the corner, 2 days later, to be exact.. er.. sorry dear..
| posted by clouds at 9:43 PM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
auntie and uncle take neoprints, dun laugh hor..
| posted by clouds at 1:05 AM
Monday, February 07, 2005
it's not even V-day.. but i've celebrated it with dear.. dear is so understanding, cos i'll be having a midterm test on V-day itself (7-10pm -- crazy lecturer :( ) so we've celebrated it already last nite.. hee..
it's the 1st v-day im celebrating with a guy.. remember last yr, i was alone at home, or not so alone actually.. hee.. cos i was on icq, chatting with some guy.. and this some guy happens to be my current bf!! hee.. so i was telling him, actually this is not our 1st v-day spent together, we spent it virtually last yr.. hee..
ok ok.. u all must be wondering wat wonderful program he "planned" for me. ok, he was so secretive that i didn't know wat we're doing until the day itself.. and he's bursting to tell abt it.. almost grew purple by the time i saw him.. hee..
he brought me to orchard, then declared that he's going to bring me to cineleisure, for a movie.. ‘A Moment to Remember’ , a korean show by son ye jin and some shuai ge.. erm, not so shuai, but he's v macho, v sweet, v loving... v touching show, i cried enough to fill 2 buckets i think, and my eyes were a bit swollen from it.. maybe it's becos of the show being a bit like those life-and-death-separation type.. i can't stop crying.. or maybe cos i've watched "Ghost" the previous nite before and still cry almost the same amount.. i shan't say much abt the movie details, but i must recommend it's a nice show to watch.. one thing abt this show is that the pace is not as slow as usual Korean movies which puts me to sleep. instead, it can capture the audience, especially in the later part..
by the way i was also given a heart-shaped box of famous amos choc chip cookies.. so we had those during our movie. i remembered the time i bought famous amos for dear on the day when i was having my driving test and i passed it in the end!! :) thanx dear..
anyway, we proceeded to have dinner, which was part of the package.. erm.. was having a horrible time with the dinner, the only saving grace was sadly, the mushroom soup and the garlic bread.. haha.. 1 word of caution: never have anything at phin's steakhouse on level 1 of cineleisure, just beside subway.. the service was horrible, the food was horrible, and there were not many customers!!
then we were entitled to a photo to be taken by the waiter (only 1 waiter in the whole big restaurant!!), so we took it and realised it's not well-lit and everything, but it's the 1st polaroid photo we had.. :) well, not satisfied with that photo, we went upstairs to get a "neocard" taken, having a hard time manuevering(cos both of us old auntie and uncle) the machine, we finally got our pictures taken, but realised that it's a neoprint machine!!! alas! then dear said we better go out, skip the cutting out of the neoprints and go home, cos the shop was slowly filled up with little kids.. argh!! haha..
so here i am, with the cut neoprints, waiting to pass them to dear.. maybe i'll scan in the pics at a later date for u to see.. :) and im still waiting for the rest of the package to reach me.. hee.. i still have a teddy bear, a keychain, and a davidoff body lotion and shower breeze.. i thot i'm entitled to the perfume tho.. but nvm, im still v happy :) cos i got to spend it with u... thanx dear..
| posted by clouds at 11:04 AM
Friday, February 04, 2005
why do i always have to mess things up? 3 days in a row! i can't believe it.. i missed 1 intro talk, just becos i was trying to catch up on my other work at central lib. if only i didn't bump into pf, i would've missed 2 intro talks in a row.. bleah!!!
wat am i doing? wat have i become?? my life is going down the drain, my career is not getting anywhere, and my projecting is a fledging mess.. my confidence level has dropped greatly.. i can't face myself.. i can't live up to my expectations anymore.. why am i having all these setbacks? 3 days in a row?
kill me bah..
| posted by clouds at 5:07 PM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
why issit that major setbacks happen at the same time??
let's start from today...
Was at MAS for an interview for their graduate officer scheme. initially i was already quite apprehensive cos they had so many different segments to test us-- the essay writing, group discussion, casual talk with some of their officers then the final interview with their penal of 2 interviewers.
when i reached, and was sitting around outside to wait for everything to start. then i was talking to some of the interviewees, and found out their background:
- Ms fair lady: graduated with a bachelor's degree at some university in US then went on to do a pre law somewhere, and finally a master's degree at Barcelona, in economics and urban studies.
- Mr Chinaman-who-doesn't-look-china-at-all: graduated with a EEE degree in NTU and currently taking a masters in financial engineeringin NTU, graduating in july as well.
- Mr "imperial": graduated from Imperial college (for a moment, i got a huge mental block and can't recall the speeling of "imperial" issit "emperior" "inferior".. watever!) with a EEE degree 1st class honours..
- Mr India (sorry, not that im racist, but it really piss me off that all these pple are competing for MY job!!): currently doing Masters in corporate law in NUS. dunno abt his degree, but i was already quite turned off when he started.
as u all can see.. how can i, a mere NUS Applied Maths graduate shine above all these interesting profiles??? wat's worse is one of the 2 interviewers was from my internship interviewers.. i guess since she rejected me once, she could reject me the 2nd time!! bleah..
issit just my luck? why do i haveto face all these foreign competiton (in the form of foreign talents, and foreign education)? i mean it's not fair cos i definitely have less to say during our group discussion. they have a wider scope of education.. they haf better ability to communicate. i hate it.. it's a unfair world out there..
which brings me back to yesterday, the start of major setbacks.. yesterday had my intro talk for my project.. i was a bundle of nerves, plus the fact that i had to present in front of my lecturer. plus the technical parts was already explained to me very much earlier on that im already not so sure of the terms.. i tried to explain, define yet realised later on the loopholes and faults in my arguments, when my lecturer asked me questions.. later, he told me not to put in the terms i do not know or are not sure of. even the important equation was poorly explained. i guess im dead meat. there goes my 3%.. i went to see my lecturer after that, and he told me where i went wrong.. drastic mistakes! i was so discouraged, i went to the toilet and hid there to cry..
i can't take it anymore.. all these discouraging things are turning up one by one..
| posted by clouds at 8:30 PM
