Saturday, June 28, 2003
I'm fooled, totally fooled!! To think that we're all in the dark, or perhaps, it's just me? Am i the only one in the dark? Remaining unaffected, untarnished? i would hope to acheive that, but i can't... I've made mistakes, mistakes i can't forgive myself... even if people are willing to forgive me about.
Why are there these kind of people in the world? Who make use of people to achieve their means? i hate to think about it, i hate to find out that i've been fooled, fooled thoroughly, and there's no way i'm gonna get my revenge... no matter how much i convince myself to stop harping on it, to remain ignorant, i insisted on checking out his website to see more updates... and i'm totally pissed at myself! really should've slapped myself! to find out that i might only be part of his plot ( to do what? )....
I really hate myself for being so ignorant and thinking that i had it all under control, yet everything is falling out of hand, my life, my friendships, my relationships, my dietplans... Argh! no matter how i swear i'll never be fooled, i am thoroughly fooled!! there is nobody i can trust in the world, everyone wears a mask, and just when i thought i have seen their true colours, i'm totally worng about that too! who can i believe, who do i want to believe? what do i really want?
Sometimes, people say that as long as they do not find out that they are cheated, they would feel better. especially gals say that they don't mind being fooled as long as they do not find out that they are fooled... That's real stupid! but will u be happier? i would think so, but that's really foolish, really STUPID!
who can i really trust? i'm lost now...
| posted by clouds at 11:15 PM
